Blogging

Salam,

How I miss blogging.

I always intend to try hard to keep up with blogging. Writing in many ways, help me to ease my stress level. I love writing and pouring my own mind and daily life. But, oh..since kids are big and they tend to concern more into their privacy and our busy-ness of life, has made my interest goes up and disappear into thin air. But, I still wish, and keep wishing how I should have share and pour my mind and my experience (regardless people want to hear or not!) and hope that it can benefit some others.

I mean, I benefit a lots from reading other people blog. Browsing blog after blog and stories after stories from other people experience help me a lots to reflect my own daily life, decision and in whatever I am doing. I like to learn a lot from other people experience and way of doing thing. I just love to observe others behavior, pause, and rectify on the good and the bad, for my own life experience.

After the journey, my life can reach a stage or a time where I just feel like sleeping and eating only...my motivation can go down the drain and how I feel hard to break it back all over again..the journey sometimes take me a way into my own world...of travelling. I feel that normal life is so hard to negotiate with.

Only if my daughter willing to make decision to divert from ordinary routine life like others, willing to choose to gain knowledge through life experience than formal college life, I guess we will be hitting the road already...The kids, although they feel like the need of settling down, so do me myself, but one side of us feel something missing. Sometimes i feel something not right. I feel so much jealous reading other overland and travelling family. I just wan to hit the road soo much so.

Life is busy though. My eldest daughter start her college three weeks after we arrived back in UK with flight from Kuala Lumpur. I try hard for the first couple of month of settling back in UK, to convince my husband not to go for a job but setting up a business together. It was hard though as he never work on his own. he just type of people who need to be in the system and in organisation. While me with my flexibility might his life harder. But, after months, I manage to convince him to give it a go. And now we both are learning to work together..

Kids homeschool is progressing and not. Just how I feel....Three of them still on full time homeschool. The second one with dyslexic, which mean I am in no rush to push him. The plan is to try to get him to do some GCSE exam next year. The second and youngest one is also on full time homeschool. We do alright although might not be as much as others. I think every home edu mother always feel like we not doing as much as we should. After 8 years of homeschool, I guess I can be so relax with that. It's not about academically progress but life skill and strong foundation in faith and know how to achieve and survive. That is what important to me.

Recently, me and dear daughter Sumrah was looking back at my old blog, which at the moment is on private. It used to be on public. I have been blogging since 2007 and there are so many of my daily story that I share with. Therefore it become a record that we can look back...how kids grow fast and how things change while they grow...

For the time being, me and dear husband working together in our business of sending second hand furniture and other household item to Malaysia. As I have build the business since the last couple of years, I think it's time to seriously do it and getting my husband involve is something I need to get it run proper and expand. It can be a very business indeed. Fortunately as kids grow, they can help to attend for themselves on many thing and also help us around. Looking back into mystoryourlife old blog, I just don't know how I do it.

I will try to get back on here from time to time. may be write a bit at a time...I still on my way to get my travel book done! Time is really moving and I am sometimes in the mood of relaxing after that big journey!

Story Line

I should have updated this blog but it seems I keep pouring my heart and mind in fb than here. I hate fb to some extend but it does give me some sense of security at some point as my facebook is strictly private. I don't have many friends in the list. I like to keep it that way but at the same time having too many close people in your fb list doesn't mean they can understand you. Nevertheless, many of them is in my list as they are close relatives and friends who I think can agree to disagree.

Throughout the year, with many things that happen, I have become stronger in my opinion. Most might hate it, most might not like it. Most might think me sharing my experience and strong opinion as big head and harsh. But, who cares! 

My life have change throughout since the last time I was blogging. Truely change. It was a bit sad knowing that I haven't actually put that in writing and now I am even struggling to put that into word for our journey. Sometimes too much emotional and psychological involve that I just don't know where to start.

There are so many to write down and so much of memories and experience to share but where is the time! I believe I got to make time. Whenever I look back at my old blog..oh my...bestnya...I been able to look back into my own life. May be I should open it back instead of keeping it privately. May be I should...

Welcome to My Story Our journey

I used blog, a lots since 2007. In 2012, I struggle to find time to blog and I did share lots of my life and passion in my facebook which not for public view. I always love writing. I found that writing ease my feeling and emotion. But, not everybody love listen to other's story. Sometimes people might think I share too much. But, I like reality story. I like reading and listening and observing other people experience, pause, reflect and ponder into my own journey. I found that I benefit more into observing others experience, good or bad than reading from someone theory which not been prove yet.

For example, I found that a bit awkward to read a writing about how to handle a teenager from someone who only have children age seven and below. I feel like, "is she know what she/he talking about?" Although what she/he is talking about might be true but for sure it come only from reading or observing, but not from own real experience that she/he already facing. Although we can all relate from our own upbringing, but having to confront one in real, is totally different story. At least, to me.

When my kids still small, I am kind of mother who have so much passion for them. When I decided to accept the proposal from my husband , (we have arrange marriage but that will be another story to tell! ) I said to myself, " I will not devoted myself to my marriage, husband and incoming children."This is because, at the age of nineteen, as someone who is highly motivated towards what I want and think a lots about my own future, since my 'jodoh' is right there waiting for me, I have to choose and think what is priority in life. To me, it's very important when choose and decide our target and destination. To know what is priority and what is top responsibility for us to fulfill.

I have too much in my mind. I love talking to Allah. I love talking to myself. Which is why I found that writing will help me put what is in my mind, right or wrong somewhere, where I can share and learn from others.

Every single day I keep thinking of sitting down again and pour the content in a blog again. I love to continue my old blog. But, there might be too much strong personal opinion which I thought need a censor before it goes back on public, since people can google my name and our By Road to Malaysia journey. I mean, everybody have own opinion and way of thinking. Word sometimes can confuse and deliver a different message depends on how people take it in.

Me, myself know that I have my own way of doing think and strong opinion towards thing I been through and believe in. But at the same time, I do not like conflict. I have learn to agree to disagree. I was born as someone who rather introvert and been through some bullying scenario, but wake up by the experience and help me build my own self in standing up for myself. I suddenly become extrovert more than ever!

I hope, by opening these blog, I able to share lots of thing. I hope I able to update not for the sake of others, but my own. I mean, looking at my old blog...oh my...best nya..! I have lots of memories of most of thing that happen throughout. I talk a lots about the past and my hope towards the future. It feel good to go back and read your own life story. With so many to talk especially the experience from our epic overland journey, I thought I need to get this blog up and running. It feel much better to get it done in the blog rather than facebook, as I can put up some related photo in between my writing.