I used blog, a lots since 2007. In 2012, I struggle to find time to blog and I did share lots of my life and passion in my facebook which not for public view. I always love writing. I found that writing ease my feeling and emotion. But, not everybody love listen to other's story. Sometimes people might think I share too much. But, I like reality story. I like reading and listening and observing other people experience, pause, reflect and ponder into my own journey. I found that I benefit more into observing others experience, good or bad than reading from someone theory which not been prove yet.
For example, I found that a bit awkward to read a writing about how to handle a teenager from someone who only have children age seven and below. I feel like, "is she know what she/he talking about?" Although what she/he is talking about might be true but for sure it come only from reading or observing, but not from own real experience that she/he already facing. Although we can all relate from our own upbringing, but having to confront one in real, is totally different story. At least, to me.
When my kids still small, I am kind of mother who have so much passion for them. When I decided to accept the proposal from my husband , (we have arrange marriage but that will be another story to tell! ) I said to myself, " I will not devoted myself to my marriage, husband and incoming children."This is because, at the age of nineteen, as someone who is highly motivated towards what I want and think a lots about my own future, since my 'jodoh' is right there waiting for me, I have to choose and think what is priority in life. To me, it's very important when choose and decide our target and destination. To know what is priority and what is top responsibility for us to fulfill.
I have too much in my mind. I love talking to Allah. I love talking to myself. Which is why I found that writing will help me put what is in my mind, right or wrong somewhere, where I can share and learn from others.
Every single day I keep thinking of sitting down again and pour the content in a blog again. I love to continue my old blog. But, there might be too much strong personal opinion which I thought need a censor before it goes back on public, since people can google my name and our By Road to Malaysia journey. I mean, everybody have own opinion and way of thinking. Word sometimes can confuse and deliver a different message depends on how people take it in.
Me, myself know that I have my own way of doing think and strong opinion towards thing I been through and believe in. But at the same time, I do not like conflict. I have learn to agree to disagree. I was born as someone who rather introvert and been through some bullying scenario, but wake up by the experience and help me build my own self in standing up for myself. I suddenly become extrovert more than ever!
I hope, by opening these blog, I able to share lots of thing. I hope I able to update not for the sake of others, but my own. I mean, looking at my old blog...oh my...best nya..! I have lots of memories of most of thing that happen throughout. I talk a lots about the past and my hope towards the future. It feel good to go back and read your own life story. With so many to talk especially the experience from our epic overland journey, I thought I need to get this blog up and running. It feel much better to get it done in the blog rather than facebook, as I can put up some related photo in between my writing.
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